And so here I am today, at 30 weeks pregnant. Only ten more weeks to go? How is that possible. Time seems to be speeding up lately, instead of slowing down like I’d like it to. I’m enjoying this pregnancy; feeling the baby move, sharing the experience with my kids…and I am not in any […]
my personal photographer
Andrew has taken quite a liking to my Canon 60D. At first I was hesitant to hand it over time him, being that he’s only six years old and the camera is an expensive one, but in time he has proven to be very careful with it. So I trust. Besides, I think he […]
life is beautiful
So here I am at 22 weeks. Don’t I look like I’m going to drop this baby any second? Okay, well maybe not any second, but I think I look about 8 months along in this photo, instead of 5 & 1/2 months! Sheesh, what’s the deal with this pregnancy? Are there two of them […]
Snow Day
Winter Vacation.I love this two-week break. Somedays we spend it doing nothing — all day in pajamas, watching movies, playing games. Other days we venture out. And I don’t just mean outside, but out of our area. Like in our local mountains for a day in the SNOW!We love the snow! […]
who’s naming this baby, anyway?
Just two more days until Christmas! Today we will be baking and decorating Christmas cookies. I’ll have to do my best not to eat too many ~ I need to watch my weight with this pregnancy, since I was about 15-20 pounds over my normal weight to start it off. Well, I consider my […]
the one where I play catch-up
It’s about TIME I come back to this blog!Seriously, do I have any followers left? I don’t blame anyone from thinking I’ve just run away…In a way, I sort of did.From the blog, that is. Not from home.But I have good reason. Which we will get to later.(the video at the end can explain it)For […]
no more babies?
So I’m going to tell you a little secret. I’ve been pregnant five times since having Aria, my last baby, who is now 3 and a half years old. Obviously since I have no new babies this means I’ve had five miscarriages. The first two I’ve written about, but the last three I’ve kept to […]
I took a nap, but I’m not pregnant!
Today I woke up feeling yucky, kinda like a cold was coming on. My nose was stuffy, my body ached. The first thing I thought was “Ugh… I have no time for this!” When I say I have NO time to be sick, I’m not kidding you. The house completely falls apart when I’m sick. […]
recovered thoughts
Today I was clearing out my blog files and deleting the posts that were saved as drafts. Many of them were duplicate posts, a few were posts that I decided not to publish…and then I found the one below. I wrote this the day I tested positive with my last pregnancy (which was lost earlier […]
another loss
We were expecting another baby, due date October 5, 2011. I am at the 10 week point tomorrow. But, the ultrasound yesterday showed that baby has no heartbeat, and in fact had passed away at about the 7 week mark. Poor little one. Again, I am left wondering just who that little one was? A […]
Sweet Words
Last night at dinner some of the little kids were discussing Heaven. I don’t know if it was because we had just come home from 5:30 mass and they were commenting on something said during the sermon, or maybe something else brought up the subject, but I overheard the conversation as I was clearing the […]
Dancing in the Rain
It’s been six weeks now since the miscarriage. Sometimes I feel like it was sooooo long ago, but six weeks really isn’t that long. I guess I’ve surprised myself by how well I am feeling these past couple weeks. I didn’t expect this. In the first few days and weeks I just *knew* I’d never be fully happy again. […]
Mind Games
I miss my little one. I miss going to bed at night with my hand resting on my budding belly. I miss the plans I had for this little one. I miss the dreams and the visions that I had of him or her joining our family. The ache is incredible. I never knew that […]
The Cart
Last Friday, I took the six little ones with me to Target. We had some shopping to do and it felt good to get out of the house. I love Target. I swear I could spend hours in that store! For those of you who are familiar with the Target carts, there is this one […]
Grief
Rich is back home today after having been at work for three days straight. So I had three days to do things on my own around here, and if I do say so myself, I did pretty good. I managed to catch up on all the laundry, and I managed to……. well, I guess looking […]
Loss
This is a post that I have been putting off writing. I find it very hard to say the words out loud, much less write it out in a post on my wonderful blog, my blog that is usually so happy. But here it goes…. I had a miscarriage on Tuesday, June 8th. I was 11 weeks […]
Ultrasound Results…..
Today I had my ultrasound!! Avery and Aislynn went with me. They were so excited to “find out” what we were having. They were hoping for a baby sister. Anyway, the baby was very active during the ultrasound. The measurements pushed my due date up by 4 days, so now the baby is due on […]